i never thought i'd wonder.

I never thought I would write this to you
This way
People always had all the respect in you
How you raise your child
How you do it
Using only your pair of hands

I never thought I needed your support
This badly
I used to think we could talk
Just about anything at all
Until time became your opportunity cost
And money became all

I never thought my tears would roll
This much
I’ve always thought you cared
But now thinking that you don’t at all
From the conversation I was trying to make
You walked away

I never thought that it would mean
Nothing to you
At all.
Until you proved to me
By asking me stupid questions
I thought you’ve always got the answers to.

I wonder if you’d ever understand
How
I feel.

I wonder if you’d ever realize
That my tears
Were because of you.

I wonder if you’d come to know
What might mean nothing to you
Means the world to me

I wonder if you ever
See my dreams.

Or are you trying to live in denial.
Or are you trying to be ignorant
Because

Ignorance is bliss.

I wonder if you see how shattered I am
I wonder if you could ever pick me up.


..I wonder if you’d ever prove me wrong..